What Adoptees Wish Others Would Say About Searching

Dear friends,

The reactions of my family members hurt and I didn’t understand why they wouldn’t back me searching for my birth mother. My husband said, “Sherrie, she shut the door 47 years ago and if you try to open it, you may get hurt.” Translating what my Dad might have been thinking…well, I don’t know. I can’t judge.

Please understand how important finding our roots is to many adoptees…I dare say the majority! It has nothing to do with your parenting success or failure. It is a part of us we must discover. That is the book title of well-respected author, speaker, and reunited birth mom, Lee Ezell– “The Missing Piece.” Listen to her incredible birth mother and adoptee reunion story here: http://youtu.be/EaR9KdLdwAU

Even though we may look strong and ready, please remember we are petrified to get up on big wing of God, the great Eagle. To let him have his way in our lives. To give up control. We are just squawking baby eaglets when we get in touch with our desire to search. Those meltdowns are proof we are in touch with the original pain of losing our first family. Ouch. I don’t like you. I don’t like being adopted. You are real. I can’t wait to get away from you. Leave me alone. I don’t need you.

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Let us feel the pain! It’s how we prepare for flying from our past. Rest assured, those who love an adoptee, that is common in the healthiest of adoptive parents to feel threatened. A counselor who specializes in adoption/trauma issues would be such a asset for both parents and searching adoptees.

What we wish others who love us would say and do:

1. I’m not surprised. Your birth parents are very important and we will back you.
2. I hope you will “count the cost” and make sure you are in a healthy place emotionally and spiritually to discover the worst or the best.
3. I am with you, no matter what happens. I have always loved you and that will never change.
4. How can I help?
5. Show compassion!
6. You can do it. I’ve got your back.
7. I am praying for you every step of the way.
8. Would you like to go through a workbook called Under His Wings together, or by yourself? It will help you get even stronger before you meet your birth family.

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Thanks for stopping by!
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An Adoptee’s Heart-Wrenching Decision to Search

Adoptees were made to fly!
    Adoptees were made to fly!

Dear friends through adoption,

After hearing my family’s silences, judgments, and sarcasm about possibly searching for my birth mother, I made a very difficult decision. It was a decision that was new to me, even though at the time, I was 47 years old.

I was like an overgrown eaglet who had stayed in the nest too long. Get me out of here, I was squawking. I’d stayed in the nest so long that all the sticks and thorns that lined the nest were hurting me. I needed to fly away from the thorns of pleasing others, putting others first, and listening to others before hearing what my own heart was saying.  I felt guilty, introspective, and terrified to go against everything my family and friends were telling me.

One Sunday, I heard a verse from the Bible that actually talked about searching. “There is a time to search….and a time to give up as lost.” (Ecclesiastes 3)

Oh, my goodness….it was as if those words jumped off the page at me!

Really? Really, God? Are You encouraging me to search? The God of the universe is encouraging me to search. Oh, could it be that He is that interested in little old me?

Go ahead and fly, Sherrie! I am the great Eagle and I will teach you to fly. Come on, get up on my big, powerful wing and look at the incredible life I have in store for you.

Wow! Could God Himself be encouraging me to search? Could it really be? Yes, it could be, and yes it was.

I took a look at the big, powerful wing. Oh my goodness, You are so strong, so powerful, so beautiful, so in charge of the whole world. Yes…yes….yes! I want to hop on Your wing and learn to fly.

Let me know about your process of finalizing your decision to search, okay? Have a great day!

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Why Would You Want to Search for Birth Relatives?

Good morning, friends!

I remember when curiosity was spilling over inside me! I had my birth mother’s name….Marjorie Elizabeth Perry. A real person. My fantasy mother was coming to life. Really? She was real? How could I not find her? I wanted to find her and reassure her that she had made the right decision in placing me for adoption. Adrenaline rushed through my veins.

However, my widower dad said, “Why would you want to open that can of worms?” My husband’s side of the family grew distant, and my husband was silent.

I felt lost, but not as lost as I would if I didn’t go forward with my search for her.

Tell me your story?!

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